Long time..

This is one post after a really long hiatus!
I would like to say that i've been really busy.. but that would be a lie! i have become too lazy.All the thoughts of typing in things leaves me running far far away from blogs... :)
I had made a note of all that i wanted to share here but now those mind-formed posts have become outdated!
The mind of ours! My God! Ho fats it thinks.Whether coherently or incoherently is a whole issue altogether.But oh my,the string of thoughts!It moves at lightning speed (or even faster) from one event to the next.
The other day i was thinking about a blog post i would write on and there!The post had already started in my mind!There i was washing my hair,and before i was done with it, i was done with my post! But of course the laziness and speed quotient made me shirk away the job.Now i dont even remember what it was about!

One incident i really wanted to talk about was the total indifference of people towards the environment in this country!look at the amount of junk lying around on roads, and river bodies.
Nobody will believe that madras is a city of two rivers!And the civic sense that most people have disgusts me.For example, some people were chopping down a tree ner the entrance of our apartment and when my dad and i asked why, they said they wanted it down because it was hiding the nameplate!Of all the reasons to cut a tree!
Even educated people don't bother. There are still students who simply throw their empty chips packets and empty wrappers out the window while traveling.All this has my bp shooting up..

and as i was going through my previous posts some time back, i see that i have just done the opposite of what i wanted to do initially! That's right,I am the biggest moaner of all times... :P

Russian Miracle baby!!!

This is probably stale news,but i came across this piece of news only today while browsing the net for something else...Baby Yakubov,at his home in Russia,has old hunch backed grandmas and school kids alike lining up to catch a glimpse of him...Why?Because the baby shows a verse from the holy Koran every few days..and the verse,in Arabic is clearly legible and appears from the latest episode!Around 2000 people out of the 20 million Islamic population of Russia are crowded around the pink brick house of Yakubov to watch the baby producing the holy verses!
Well,well! How do you explain that? Experts in science and dermatologists have confirmed that it is the skin itself that's turning dark with the appearance of the verse! And,no jokes!
The baby has high fever before the berses appear...that is the indication for the appearance of the Arabic verses.....Unbelievable!

What a brat!!!

Now i'm twenty.... I take certain decisions of my own, choose to do what i like and i'm given quite a lot of freedom to do what i like...Thanks to my parents,aunts and uncles and grandparents....But this has not been the case with my cousin.She happens to be the elder of the only two grandchildren in the family and i should say she's had to take the brunt of the growing years of parents....Yeah,i said it right...I think parents grow with their children,gain experience from them...learn to take up responsibilities and basically learn the art of parenting... :P (Serious!!!).
And we are a very good example!
Here are a no. of examples...When she completed her twelfth board exams,she planned to go out with her friends..watch a movie ....and a lunch,maybe...And here i was rolling on the floor,sobbing for her to take me along too!And parents!You know how they are....She was advised to never leave a younger kid behind at home and go out to have a good time...And there i was,smiling away,tagging along behind her.Little did i understand the extent to which i would make her uncomfortable! After all,a younger sis is a lot of responsibility...This was repeated when she wanted to watch a movie with her friends at home on a quiet afternoon...And it happened to have content that was definitely too much for a twelve year old...But ya,not too vulgar for a nineteen year old....I had to go out with my dad somewhere...But again there i was whining to hang out with the older girls.But this time,my dad decided that the movie was definitely not for me... (But if it had been a different movie,she would definitely have had to listen to long sermon!).There was a round table conference held with the elders of the family if she wanted to treat her friends at a big hotel("not the normal canteen and cold drinks...." they felt),when she wanted a cell phone of her own and subsequently when she talked for hours on end into it and when she stayed at a friend's place for more than two hours....
Thank god.... Parents don't remain that way...Now,my dad is not worried even if i call him up to stay the night at a close friend's place...Birthday treats have become a common feature these days..So there is not a second question asked when i want to treat my friends..i have a cell phone of my own(Infact i got when i was younger!)
And after all this inner realisation you would think i stopped being a brat!No!!!! A year and a half back i wanted to accompany her to a friend's wedding that took place in village...Just to watch all the fun! And nobody protested! Now when i think back to all this,I've probanly spoiled several memorable and enjoyable moments for her...But i should say,there has not been a single day she's turned a face at me,nor has she pointed out to the elders of the family that i'm being allowed to do a lot more things compared to her.... I love her for that!!!
ELDER SISTERS ROCK!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Hmm....wat is this post about???? :P

It's been a long long time since i posted anything...So i thought i would do it now...My exams are round the corner..Yet,here i'm wasting my time.I take facebook quizzes,listen to the fm,listen to the latest family updates from my aunt,talk to my friends over the phone....that is everythimg except studying.. :P This has been happening every time before the exams.But i tend to have an inner fear that pushes me to my books or atleast i sit with it most of the time atleat ten days before the exams....But this time i have this guilty feeling of not doing justice,but no fear!! Strange.....
Now coming back to blogging after a long time-I'm this really forgetful person....so i made a note of all the things i wanted to put down when i posted something later on....Now i don't know where i put that list!!! :P So much for putting it down in writing to remember things! My dad always asks me to prepare a check list to see what i have to do for the day and what work is pending....Little does he understand that preparing the checklist is not the issue here,but where i put the checklist is!!! :P
As usual,i prepared a timetable to organise my syllabus and studies....But timetables are to be forgotten as resolutions are to be broken!!! :P
My friend is going to be here in a few hours and we are going to combine study(yeah,the same thing where we take a break to study in between our chat....yak,yak,yak :P)
so tata....i think i'll be bak with another post in a short time-no other work to do.... :Pand hopefully i'll find my checklist!!! :D

An End to Reasoning????

Every single question asked has a direct answer....yet the answer is never enough for human beings....man found the stone....he didn't stop with that....he found fire,made vehicles,invented a language,carved out caves,found that he could make jewellery out of the stones....he did not stop with the stones found on the surface,but dug out new ones,went into the sea,and more nd more...one discovery lead to anoher and another and so on....
To cut a long story short,man has been discovering several things and inventing several things...and ofcourse,there are more things to be done(what with a million engineering students looking for a project to work on!!!) And he has come to this stage because of his nature to question....which leads me to the main topic of discussion in this blog....and yes,it is going to be a little spiritual too....
Scientists have worked on several things,found an answer to the previous question asked and progressed to unthinkeable levels!!!!and the graetest of greats have always asked this question to themselves.....I s science God??? Or is there a Supreme power driving science itself....Born and brought up in a family that believes in a supreme power ,I have never questioned the existence of God....To me, God exists....He is ,to me,the driving force behind everything, the controller of everything from the flow of blood and adrenaline in my body to the movement of planets in the universe,to the moulder of my character....Omnipotent....
He spreads positive vibrations when i think about Him...And He takes different forms for different beings...And yes,more than all this, He maintains the balance in our lives...I blame Him,scold Him,yet I trust Him.... I know that I can open out to Him....To me,and to thousands of others,He is an invisible being in whom I can believe...like I said,he spreads those positive vibrations in me....
To me, one person calls Him Shiva,one calls him Allah,one calls him God who sends his messenger Christ in His place,and some call Him Science....
I know this is an issue that people have debatted with for centuries!!!Fought over it for no reason at all!!!Just to make their points heard.....!!!! this is absurd....a man ultimately has to live his own life....nobody can live his life for him.... He makes his judgements,fixes his thoughts,trusts in people he wants,makes his friends ,his foes... so why kill another life to make your point heard or why make your point at all in sensitive issueslike the existence of God????
I have heard of several people talk about the search for your inner self...but my opinion again....there is no end to reasoning and searching!!!! ;P

a meaningful life??!!!

This is how my day is literally pushed....every single day....I get up in the morning and just have time to get ready for college...so am not really thinking when i get ready...Then,time to board the bus...i read a book or simply gaze out or talk to my friend...Once i reach college,it's those last minute enquiries about assignments and records to be submitted on that day...Once classes start at nine,I wait for the break at ten-forty to stretch myself and have a word or two with my friends...when the break is over,i can't wait for lunch..again to relax(and of course,to eat...),then it's the next ten min break am waiting for...then finally for college to end at four...Then it's again time for the bus journey with my book or a chat with my friend...Back home,I slowly eat while watching Craig's "Reach out"...Then time to do record work or observation work or assignments....(there always is something to do)...This is how each day of my life is getting wasted!!!!
I just realised that am not doing anything worthwhile,or anything that i enjoy doing....Now,i've charted a plan to do more things...things that i hould feel happy about when i look back to my past on a later date...hope it works and hope i'm not just another human being serving no purpose here....

A local train journey...

I travel quite a lot these days in our local trains(my college being ner tambaram)...and this is one of my experiences in the last journey i had(around three weeks back) and i remembered it just now...It would have been another 40 min trip from tambaram to kodambakkam...but everything that disgusts me happened on this single trip...
First of all,it started with me getting onto a running train(really!and this was my first time and as the laws in physics would have it...i almost fell off due to inertia(atleast,that's wat i think it is!)
Wat's the big deal?Yeah,right,it didn't stop just there...
I g0ot a seat in facing the direction opposite to that of the train's and i would have puked(i have that problem) if I hadn't got the opposite seat in the next stayion...so far so good....There was this lady sitting next to me and she was eating a carrot....ok,that's her mouth...but once she was done with it,she just threw the remaining part under our seat!!!As if that wasn't enough,a few students got in at pallavaram... they were having lays(it always hasto do something with food ;))...they got the lasrt powder all over their hands and wanted to wash their hands...the could have got up an washed near the entrance but thy chose to lean all over me and pour the water out of their water bottles...when they realiosed that their efforts were futile,they chose to wipe their hands(as if they couldn't have decided that in the beginning itself)...the lady opposite me spat out of the window!! YUCK>...limits exceeded....
I decided it was time to get up from that place and stand near the entrance away from these people who got on my nerves!!I tell you,it really wasn't my day...There was a lady selling chikku and the lady next to me wanted to buy some(atleast wanted to buy...i thought)...but no.She wanted to taste as well!!!So she got the fruit from the vendor,got it squashed all over her hand,ate it,said it was nice nd sweet,and de3cided not to buy it on hearing the price!My God!She could have asked for the price even before tasting the fruit!As if this was not enough,she threw the seeds inside the train itself!!!I really wanted to yell at her-after all,she was standing next to the entrance!Then there was this lady who got in at the mambalam station.She hd her hands full of shopping bags and was balancing a cup of some masala sundal or something...Of all the places she could have taken in that compartment,she came and stood besi9de me,pressed between two of us (probably for balance) and was eating away happily...and wat a smell! I can't stand the smell of garlic taht was quite raw...and here she was...Thankfully,Kodambakkam was the next station-I got down,now I,ve decided to give the otyher compartments a try and avoid the ladies compartment next time.....I just want to check if even males can be like that!!

Another war!

To those of you who read my previous blog,you don't have to tell me anything!!I know it's pathetic!!!! But i guess we will not discuss it anymore as i have already decided to write anything i want to say at that moment.....
It's a long long time since i wrote anything,so i don't have much to write mainly because i can't remember any interesting event or topic i wanted to write on....
It's been a long holiday for me...wat with me bunking two days of college and now sitting at home for another 3 days because of the bandh...Atleast our unit tests are postponed(or even cancelled :) ....but most unlikely!!!:()
This rally to be held today is to stop the war in srilanka (i don't know how the govt. comes up with these protests when the war is almost over and the ltte are on the losing side!!).I knew that a war has been raging for a very long time in that small country but didn't know much about the intricacies...
The srilankan tamils were treted like slaves,they were not given a right to vote and were discriminated and treated like outlaws...Just like every other story ends,the sinhalese lost their limits and the tamilians rose against them in protest...Initially there were several tamiklian civilian groups workiing for this cause,but being humans they had their internal clashes and the LTTE(Liberation Tigers of Tamil Elam) emerged victorious...This clash continued in the subsequent years and things grew from bad to worse in the late eighties...Everything acceptable upto this point...India decided to intervene and bring about peace in sri lanka....this was followed by the Indian army sent to the country...They were called the Indian Peace Keeping Force...India meant well,but this only worsened the situation with the LTTE thinking that their demands may not be met without violence,what with their arms and ammunition hideouts being found by the IPKF....The sinhalese too thought that a third member was interfering and causing more havoc....Result:Rajiv Gandhi was killed by a suicide bomber belonging to the LTTE...
If the govt. had really been against the war,they would haveheld thes protests a little earlier...that is my personal opinion...

Well,things really need to change in our country....corrupt and selfish politicians disgust me....am sure most of us Indians feel the same way,yet none of us educated people really stand up except talk(me included)....Of course with IITians entering politics,there is a change....A streak of light...HOPE!!!

The best diary ever!!!

This is one of those fleeting thoughts i had.....and i thought...even if it is in a few words,i have to put it down here...
Every year, for the past 6 years I have resolved to maintain a diary and jot down the day's happenings, my thoughts,etc,etc.,etc....But i realised recently that everyday diary entries are not for me!!I am too lazy for all that....so i write in my diary only when i am really bored and have nothing else to do(that depends on my definition of nothing else!),or I am in a mood to write(that's quite rare these days!I have enough record work to love writing!) or I am really frustrated..like i've had a fight with my dad(which happens most of the time and is the major reason for the existence of my diary!!!).But tell you what!Diaries can be tiresome...you might have stuff that you don't want anybody else to know ....A diary can spoil somebody's perception of what sort of a person you are...after all...my diary contains only things about all the fights with my dad!!So see....I am not the same sweet girl they think I am!;P

Then comes your blog....My no. of blogs justifies the fact that i have nothing much to write here...my topics are pretty lame!ok,guys,I agreed already! I can read your minds....no need to rub it in!!!!:D

So wat is this best diary ever?????MY MIND!!!!!!or for that matter,anybody's mind!!and the heart helps it to decide how close the matter is to you....There are certain things i dare not put down in words.....so i put them away safely at some place in my head....and it's just like a computer.....brings things to me when i want it!!!Goodf,bad,embarassing situations,a nice incident-anything!!!!You want to remember it for life??YOU CAN!!!!

that's it....done with some more crap stuff!!!But i like it anyway!!!:) :)

In the eyes of the beholder!!!

For those of you who thought i was going to tell you about that Jefferey Archer short story with the same title,well,you are wrong....But the reason why I chose this title is because I want to convey the same thing here.....
A few days back,I was going through an old album of the 1950s... My eyes chanced to see them as I was cleaning out a shelf and what I saw only made me go on from one photo to the next.There my pati and thatha were!Smiling away as newly wedded!Then my thatha's graduation photo...He was extremely smart and looked very young!Just imagine!He was married in a few months after that day!Then my pati...with her traditional looks...Even the other day one of my patti's cousins visited us and he told me..."You know,your pati was the beauty of srirangam those days..."..Yes, I could see that.Her long hair,charming smile,the traditional nose-stud and earrings...slim even after two kids!!Definitely a beauty....(I'll definitely try to scan the photo and put it up here in my blog).My pati was also an AIR artist and lent her voice for tamil dramas...
That left me thinking...Here she was now-weak,unable to move freely,dependent on others to for her every single move!She can't sleep peacefully because she does not feel comfortable in any position and can't turn on her own!She has difficulty in talking,her fingers close on their own,she can't control them as well...they call this the parkinson disease,a problem with the nervous system...But she is no way less to me from what she was a few years back to what she is now!She remains to be the same dear,pati who I can cuddle up to.Her wrinkles have made her softer and more cuddly, her tooth-less(not completely toothless) smile more baby-like,small face making her cuter by the day,and her uncontrollable fingers holding me when i do anything for her..I can feel the trust she has in me as I hold her.She doesn't trust anybody else as much as she trusts me and appa...Ma,you still remain my sweetheart,...I will always come to you for comfort...
The same holds good for my thattha..It's a year since he passed away,but he is always around me...I can literally feel him...when I go to college,when i study and especially when i sing!!He is there...not at all gone... and will remain with me for the years to come...He will live on in the work i do..I will continuously hear him praise me...However,I wish i could remember my healthy thatha...whenever I think about him, only the thatha of his last days-the frail one who can't see me,who can only imagine how i looked,how i was dressed...but he was there,supporting me throughout....
But,beauty definitely lies in the eyes of the beholder!!!They are still beautiful to my eyes....they grow more beautiful day by day with more no. of wrinkles!:)They get older as my grandparents and they are indeed GRAND-PARENTS!!!!